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Fear knows best.

I'd like to tell you everything,
but words stop me half way,
and tell me not to tell you anything.

It's a fascinating ordeal of going all in,
or simply betting the table min,

A fascinating ordeal
of eating the snack,
or waiting for your full course meal.

What can I say, I really want the powerful notes,
but I fear it may be too much,

I fear I will forget the notes
that played by my ear
as you sent them my way.

I fear for these things
without knowing,
if I can take them both,

I fear not because I don't know better,
but because better is worse,
and the future, inevitable.

But most of all,
I fear because the paths are obvious and marked,
I fear because I know, I will knowingly make the same mistake,
I fear because time isn't right,
And every path I take I have stepped on in the past,

In joy I thought wisdom would bring me peace,
and here I lay, helpless, watching the future go by,
I watch it crumble, and ask for the check,
Dinner's over, and so are we.


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