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I can't feel right.

It's really hard,
to sit here,
and think of life,
without you.

I don't know,
how to make things,
the same,
perhaps, im trying too hard.

But I want you back,
All has gone black,
I am blinded by pain,
my words have done me no gain.

Please, just let me know,
if such mistake,
cost me you,
if my words, have ruined it all.

I need to know, because
My heart is torn apart,
by the very thing,
I was going to do.

By almost making a mistake,
and loosing a close friend,
I think, i may have lost you,
I really hope, this is not true,

Because a moment comes in time,
where your words serve me right,
and all I need,
is some wisdom, and peace.

I love being direct,
but maybe you need some space,
I love making things right,
But as you wisely told me once,

You can't make everybody happy,
I just really hope,
that you are not part,
of everybody,

Out of my own spellbook,
I think, I may have lost you,
because I considered loosing,
your best friend.

I don't know what to say,
I don't know who I am these days,
But I really think,
I finally get it.

Your thoughts may have wondered,
To think that if my thoughts,
wondered into such dimensions,
That then, my value for you,
was just the same.

In the irony of it all,
it seems my actions have been
shut down by my words,
lonely, lies a man,
with friends who walked away.

I don't know why I feel this way,
But I can't let you walk away,
I have learned from my mistakes,
So with drifting eyes,

I wait here, because my blurred vision,
hopes to see you in the distance,
as a close friend,
who never left.

I don't know, if I could take your departure,
without at least a fracture,
deep inside, I just know,
I could not live without you,

I dont know why I feel like this right now,
I dont know what's wrong,
I just know that without you,
I can't feel right.

I miss you.


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Learning to float

First my apologies.
Perhaps I gave y'all the idea that
it was all spit without the gears
We aint about that shit

Words can leave you salivating
But sweat builds the fucking mountains
So don't ever forget that in a heartbeat
I could carry your dreams and forget I even did

You're swimming in it, but you can't even float
The irony of words is that they hold the strength of plans
Without the gunshot
You'll never be grand.

We can all aim high but precision does the talking
It's all too simple these days
With the chatter and spread of information
We're suddenly heroes and activists

But we haven't even blinked, the AC,
It's still running. It's near silence
but its not. The inaction,
It's deafening.

Heck I've gone mute,
I can't even rhyme shit
that could emphasize the prolonged
dream of a typeface, the letters were blank.

It was always that way,
It was always silent because at some point
We stop pinching ourselves and assume
that it was deserved…



It switched.
Unequivocally different.
Through those hardships
We finally turned around.

Perhaps reflections and glimmers
Gave us sight when we could not claim
But the panoramic put the shimmer
To shame.

Thank you.
In this brilliance we rose
Hoping to understand why the routine
drifts away in prose

For every detail and every insight
The neurons kept firing in question,
Let us speak for it is time
To mark this audacity in rhyme.

Although subtle
The cues went noticed
The portrait tact
And yet somehow,

But lets digress from these colors
Let the light paint our shadow
For the steps keep calling
with a subtle vibration

We know its time.

Let me get hurt.

Let me sit here,
Let me feel the drops,
As my heart shatters,
and your shadow drifts away.

Let us get confounded,
Let us mix emotions,
Pour them all into a melting pot,
Pour them all into a blurry past.

I want to look back,
and know that I have felt,
I want to look back and know,
That I have loved.

Because from the pain,
and from the tears,
and from the painful nights,
that I shivered through,

There were the nights,
that you held my hand,
and gave me warmth,

There were the nights,
where it was only us awake,
in the whole wide world,
It was only us who felt love.
Let me believe that it was all true,

Let my tears be for the moments that I miss,
and not for the moments that I did not live.

Let me get hurt, because only then,
will I have lived.

Let me get hurt, because only then,
will I have loved.