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Things fall apart.

No leaves move,
Beyond the gust,
I am puzzled,
At the emotion-less lust.

After months,
I realized one thing,
The numbness,
It would never go away.

Dry and cold,
Winter's pinnacle,
It was a lifetime,
Of no emotions.

A tempting choice,
Quickly dried out,
Irony at its best,
A happy place,
Which was not right.

How could I read,
The mixed signals,
How could I go past,
An unchanged expression.

Yell at me,
Scream at me,
I beg you please,
Let me feel
that you are real.

A history has closed you,
It has taken your life,
You are a loving teddy bear,
A small child's addiction,
For a few months in time.

But in truth,
You are purely potential,
A hopeful sight in the future,
An icy smile in the present,
A truly constant past.

I ask no more,
As I forget my teddy bear,
And remind myself, that today,
You are nothing.
With hope that tomorrow,
You will be something.

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