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plant it. then explain it.

Sometimes you don't realize or understand somebody until the setting and scenario change... Sometimes what you didn't know hurts so deeply, that everything changes. It's like a drop of oil in water, it's that drop that changes everything, that messes with the entire cup of water. It's a small seed that drops into every thought, it's the final puzzle piece that you lost under the couch and finally found. Everything locks in, it all makes sense, and sense makes you feel like you've been living a lie. But then you realize the drop of oil had long ago contaminated the water, and you were only now noticing what you always knew. You knew that puzzle piece existed, and you only noticed the seed because it's flowers had blossomed, it took you long enough to realize, but now, it's evident.

What can I say, reality doesn't hit you until it's a horse slapping you with a frying pan in the face. It's the lie that's always been there, the one you never wish you realized, but at the same time, something you were waiting for all along. It was the moment you wanted to hold onto, the moment you wanted and wished for, but never came. It was the moment you could use as an excuse to mount the hidden feelings and crushed emotions because you simply didn't have the balls to do it before. It's what you've always said to yourself before in hope that you would change. It's the little idea that you planted inside yourself for no reason, the little idea that grew strongly without true logic, it's the little idea that creeped onto every schema you ever had, and now that little idea has a reason, now that little idea has a home, and now that eternal cognitive dissonance has resolved.

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