It's nice to get thoughts flowing again. It had been a few days of a pretty miserable wellbeing, and I was glad to have my friends there when I needed them. I had to cancel my flight to visit friends this weekend because of work, which bothers me even more, but I disappointed a professor. I don't mean to sound like I'm always looking forward to impressing the professor, because frankly it isn't about that, but rather whether I truly feel proud of the project. And I don't. I don't feel proud of my work, the project isn't entirely functional, it actually kind of sucks, and I was glad my professor let me know that up front. It was a rough emotional hit, but it was the truth. Today I am reorganizing my life, putting the pieces of a war-torn yesterday self back together, to come back a stronger, and more prepared self. I will not let the things that have affected me in the past affect me again. I will pick up and get my shit together, because I am not here for the luxury ride. I am here to exploit my fullest potential. I haven't been quite me recently for this SCAD class. I haven't given it my all and I know I can do better. I have hit rock bottom, and am ready to stand up. I have been taught that preparation and organization are key, and that just because you have gotten a silly device to work for your program does not mean that it makes the game good. The simple words of the fields as they speak to me across the mist which will soon clear. Clarity will be the steps of the future, as I carefully take the hit, and get ready to put these wounds in the past, and man up.
peace,
qk
peace,
qk
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